Nadie Se Va Salvar!

what can be said?
I ask myself
looking at all these networks
networks
net works
what can i say
what sums me up
nothing
no thing
nothing.......
not really just
so fucking tired
not just lack of sleep
lack of dreams
but then i have dreams
so many dreams
lack of reality maybe?
self doubt?
short of breath.
and yes, though I won't mention it
superstition in a scientific world
is an expression of freedom
or defiance?
180 days ago ,
3653 days ago,
10,959 days ago
when it was all the past
what did people say and do to pass the day?
where did the time disappear into...
some rat hole?
what happened to the dead
who lived and breathed the struggle?
what happened to the dead
who never struggled?
a sucking force
down the drain,
maybe that's my time in stasis
semi-intransitive, wasted
or maybe it's more like a lit fuse
transforming into rapid expansion
shattering boundaries and limits
deforming a deformed reality
does the mathematical rule apply?
creating patterns
wrought in neurons
that can never be forgotten....